I’m still drowning inside.

The bittersweet sirens grab hold of me,

I kick and flail for air- I need the noise

that can color and scramble my thoughts

and raise me from the sea

and carry me into tomorrow.

There’s none near.

My mind is stagnate with melancholy songs.

I feel floaty in the dark depths.

The sirens sing to me

and I just want to close my eyes-

just for a little bit

maybe longer.

This all feels familiar-

that makes me feel safe-

but I know I’m not.

i just want to close my eyes-

just for a little bit

maybe longer.